Updated: Jun 7, 2019
Something caught my eye as I walked past the shop window in the busy Brighton lanes.
It was a shoe shop but not as you know it.
This was the Willy Wonker of shops.
All candy colours and sparkle, sequins and lace.
I'd not long separated from my husband -
a relationship I'd been in for 19 years.
Yes, thats right 19 friggin years!!! ( 3 kids, two dogs, two cats, two guinea pigs, lived abroad, moved house 8 times - 19 years long!) holy moly!
I was coming home to me - for way too long I'd been numb, waiting for something to change, but frozen in complete fear to make anything happen.
As I tried on these shoes, I knew I was going to get a pair -
they were totally impractical
way out of my price range
and oh my god I wanted them so much!
I chose a green pair of sparkled heels with a big velvety bow on the toe-
very Wizard of Oz.
Should I be clicking my heels together and wishing for home?..
Yes I should.
I was coming home to me -
for way too long I'd been numb
waiting for something to change
but frozen in complete fear to make anything happen.
But here I was;
living Back in Brighton, a city I love.
Living on my own with my three kids
It was messy,
and there were definitely times when I felt the pressure.
I was a hot mess goddess -
I knew that to stay sane I needed to make my self care a priority,
no question, these were things that I had to do to stay mentally and physically healthy. -
stretching, breathing exercises, hydration, nutrition.
You know the drill,
we all do...
but how easy we let these things slip when the heavy stuff drops in.
I clung onto those practices though
as my lifeline,
They kept me going,
they kept me glowing.
There's just your own flavour and mine happens to be green sparkles.
I felt happy,
when I could have been sad.
where I could have been desperate.
when I should have been wiped out.
So; back to my shoes,
I've only worn them a few times...
They always get attention!
and now I have them in my room
like a piece of art,
they make me smile.
They remind me that I'm worth it,
that I can shine,
that I can be way too much -
in fact bollocks to that -
there is no 'too much'.
There's just your own flavour
and mine happens to be green sparkles.
I'm learning that when I feel good I'm able to help others feel good too, it might sound like a cliche but it's true.
When I look at the More. mats I have the same feeling -
I want them!
to remind me who I am.
They are bold,
They shout -
Look at me!
Sit on me
Stretch on me
Love yourself on me.
We are not here to dumb/ dim ourselves down -
We are here to revel in joy,
to do what fills us up -
What does that mean to you?
What makes you feel good?
I'm learning that when I feel good
I'm able to help others feel good too,
it might sound like a cliche but it's true.
So please, if you see those green sparkly shoes (or a gorgeous More. mat ;) ) and it stirs something in you
I kind of feel I should write ' because you're worth it' -
but that might be just a bit too cheesy...
but you ARE awesome,
you ARE a goddess,
you DO deserve more...
and I can't wait for us to do something together... howling at the moon? ;)
More. mats can be viewed here - www.choosemorenow.com
Shoes from - Irregular Choice